Jean said she'll pay me 2 bucks if i update . What ? It's free money, why not ? ;) so Jean, i want me cash when i see you !
Good morning everyone,
since today i woke up with a stomach ache probably due to last night's rendang coz see, i was trying to help my mom finish up the dish (my dead was unwell and couldn't finish his food or help finish up meat dishes) so we won't have to keep them in the fridge as leftover but when i was done, momma told me i didn't need to coz there's lots more at the back so she's keeping them in the fridge anyway . Oh my god . Yeah, probably indigestion . YAY -_-
Since i'm up early, i thought maybe i could update this "dying blog" as Jean put it . *SIGH . Don't get me wrong, i love blogging but it's just that these days, i just don't feel like telling the world what's been happening coz i feel it's enough for only ME to know ;) OR my momma took the internet adapter coz i'm an internet addict -,- I go for the second one . With SPM up ahead, no surprise :S
Just to fill you guys in, my maid's not around for now . So yeah, my sibs and i have to work around the house . And we're home alone most of the time . Amazing the house is still standing, no ? Best part, there are days when we cooked for ourselves like that day when we wanted to experiment with the kitchen . And it's not destroyed :D But we'll get to that part later . I'll finish up my whole day of yesterday first hm ;]
HMM, it was nothing much. Just watched tv with sibs, did some revision, chores and tuition . I'm always tired these days so i'm always half awake most of the time . The only interesting part of the day was the part when my mom and i had a looooooong talk about my sister-to-sister talk and came clean about some stuff that we lied to her about . Nothing much . After that, my mom kinda told me her life story since school til after college which is kinda cool, knowing momma made mistakes too and it makes me feel motivated (yet, again) .
Did i mention all my 3 sibs went to my cousin's house for a sleepover ? WITHOUT ME . And i didn't even know about it ! Mean, aren't they ? INDEED . I'm not into sleepovers, it's just that my aunt has this spa tub thing in her house with all the ingredients of lavender and such so yeah, I NEED FREE-OF-CHARGE SPA TIME ! They're probably eat some nice food by now while i'm stuck here eating leftovers -_-' Home alone . All alone . With no one here . Just me . Sniff .
Good thing momma left me the internet :D YAY ! At least i have a weeee bit of sanity with me :)
as most of you keep asking me for a thousandth time, i think i'll answer it here straight rather than to explain from one person to another . It's tiring, don't you think so ? I mean, for one, it's a waste of energy . Two, it's irritating !
Question of the day ; What's with the 'familiar stranger' and the 'rinanonymous' ?
Answer ;
Oh THAT, you mean my blog name and my blog URL ? Hahaha . It's a very funny story actually . Well, i've always remembered myself as the 'loser person', the 'nobody' or in other words, i'm not really well known and i didn't have much friends back then when i was in prinary school . Yeah, i'm in groupies but i never found REAL friends who's stuck by me for more than a decade like some other friends i have . They make me jealous sometimes . USED TO . Now i find it doesn't really matter coz maybe she or he is not really destined to be your friend and it makes you independent . Like, as in you don't REALLY need peeps just to feel good, fit in or do things . Not that having friends is bad, no . But as humans, we tend to get carried away with things which sometimes can lead us to doing things we never thought about doing . They can influence us . That's why it's good to balance between YOU-time and US-time :)
Oh my, i'm blabbing off topic again ! Haha, it happens . So yeah, i think myself as the person who's a stranger to everyone . No one knows me well and it's disappointing . After primary school, my parents sent me away to this religious school when i was in form one . Honestly, it's a good thing i went there , i learned things way too much for me to take at a time but i took it anyway . It's good but again, no friends . Next school's pretty much the same . Yeah, i have friends but not as like a friend who KNOWS ME .
When i came to this other school when i was a form three is the time when i ACTUALLY made friends ! Experience with previous schools, people and happenings made me into a much better person . I forced myself to make friends with different people everyday, to everyone . And it worked . I don't believe it too at first but yeah, it did . My friends there are the friends who KNOWS ME . Well, not ALL of them but knowing a few of them is enough to me . I'm not asking much because i am grateful :') I used to sulk every time and go like, WHY DOES MY PARENTS HAVE TO MOVE ME IN DIFFERENT SCHOOLS ?! And it took a while before it hit me, it's for my own good . How can i not see this earlier ? From that moment on, i never had anything against their choices . I'm big enough to listen and understand .
Kay actually, all of this is not really answering your question huh ? I'm sorry . Emotions came over me .
The main idea is that i have no friends at the time . And when i came to Sri Permata, people went, "Oh, she looks familiar!" or "Who's that aa ?" or "Do i know her ?" Bad way to make your first impression in school but yeah . Friends started flowing and oh, there are times when i wish i was a loner . I prefer to NOT be known but i want to be something familiar to them . Kinda weird, if you ask me . I don't even understand myself for fish sake ! I'd like to be a stranger . That way people won't put the spotlight on you as much . People won't see you as a too-wonderful person just because you're nice to them or a total loser just because you made a mistake . It's like being center on a stage . Not a nice place to be when you're a person like me ;O]
I enjoy the stage but not in the middle . I prefer not to be known all the time . I think you get the point .
*Yawn, i'm sleepy . I think i've probably went out of topic again here, hahaha . Well, whatever it is, i'll just close this one and continue tomorrow if i have to .
I am actually scared of going to my new add maths tuition and i don't even know why ! HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !
Oh, why aren't you laughing people ?
It's funny kan ? kan ? EHEH, NO -_-' OHMYFREAKINGFISHSTICKS ! YEAH , my mom wanted me to take Additional Mathematics with a teacher who is actually my old primary one-to one tuition teacher's neighbor . Mmhm . Somehow, my old tuition teacher thinks my current Add Maths teacher ain't as good as this one . And she managed to convince my mom to change my tuition for that subject only . Oh great.
SO um, i went to the new place at around 8.09 pm . Indeed, i was late . It's either my dad has a bad sense of direction like my grandpa OR my mom might have given him the wrong address . Both are wrong . We found the house, i was just to scared to go in . SHEESH, i know .
The class lasted for two hours but in my case, one hour and 45 minutes . Better make a note to self to NOT be late like this other boy who did and MANN, he got some serious talk from the teacher . Don't get me wrong, the teacher's good . AND i mean, REALLY good . Better than my previous . It's just too bad i didn't start earlier . But yeah, she scares the fish outta me ! There's another teacher who helps her out by walking round, checking answers and help students . She's nicer :) But who am i to say nice or not ? HAHAHA
Mannn, i was so nervous when i came that when i did some questions which in my case, is damn easy cause i've just learned it the day before and i've mastered it at my previous tuition, I DID LOTS OF CARELESS MISTAKES ! Like, WTFISH ?! Good thing i was new, the teacher was KINDA nice when she told me my mistakes . Totally breaking my focus . But the paranoia helped . SO now, i'm TOO SCARED to repeat mistakes . Great . Just GREAT, everyone .
When classes end, everyone started going out . And i quickly took out my phone and texted as fast as my fingers could saying, "PAPA, pick me up" I'd add a "QUICKLY" at the back but thinking twice, i don't want him to think unnecessary things cause knowing him, he's the kind of person who judges things at first glance for certain things . That's good and bad at times but i prefer it if he don't do it like that, it's offending sometimes . But actually, i think it's ME who's all sensitive . HMMM :l
I was given homework and i went out after saying thanks to the teacher . I practically RAN jogged out just to quickly get in the car . I can finally breathe once i stepped in and safely closed the door . YAY ! Sad part, i have to come back next week . And the week after that . And after THAT til THE END OF SPM 8O
Hello hello everyone ! My exams are over but work and studies are even MORE than before . My oh my ! Life as a student is getting tougher and tougher by the second . And i don't like it -.-' Or maybe it's just a temporary feeling . Cause MOST ADULTS (more like, all of them) says it's so so so WONDERFUL to be a student . They'd go, OH STUDY HARD CAUSE IT'S FUNN ! EHEH, ooo-kay . Right . Sure, adults . Sure .
AHEM, so since exams are TEMPORARILY over (it usually comes back every few months, unfortunately), my parents had decided to let me do some blogging . YEAHHHH, and don't ask me cause i don't even know WHY . Maybe there's some schemes behind it but I'd rather find out not-anytime-soon if you know what i mean . But I'm guessing it's all good stuff . So, no worries . FOR NOW .
So i'd like to start things off with my little review assignment :) There's this website which actually helps room renters to advertise what kind of rooms they have and the facilities (Internet service, dobby, etc ) they offer to go with it . And it covers all over Malaysia . Yes, even the Sabah and Sarawak yo ! But i find most of them are in Kuala Lumpur and Selangor . Not surprised there . We're a bunch of city people ! Useful, I'd say ! For travelers and students, especially .
Those who are in NEED to find rooms for rent can just easily go online and search it here . They have it, no problem . No need to walk around the whole town, searching and asking for places . I can see that some of them are at a reasonable prices too .
BEST PART, anyone interested could ALSO advertise what kind of rooms THEY'RE looking for . Talk about cool and useful ideas put together, huh ? So after a person finds their perfect room, they can just contact online or with the phone numbers they provided together with the room in formations .
Hm ? What's the website ? Oh it's Cari Bilik ! Yep, the name says it all . Did you know they have Twitter too ? Mmhm, it's true ! All you Twitter people can go check it out :D I did . Not bad indeed !
You'll know when you're on the correct website when you see this down here
Oh, have i mentioned ?
Yep, you have to log in first before starting :0
That's all i can say so far :) HM ? OH, nope . I have not tried it . YET . Don't plan to, i guess . I love my home and the family in it too much to be moving out anytime soon :] Though it'd be nice but maybe not for now . Adulthood is still not growing on me . HAHA ! But I'll know where to go when i need to find a room . With parents' permission, of course .
Oh my, i think it's time for me to do my tuition homework now . SEE YA !
I bet you all were wondering how was the All American Rejects concert huh ?
One sentence to say it all ; It was super-duper-bloody-godlike-awesome-to-the-max ! But sadly, my mood's ruined by certain things (or people) and the awesome after-concert effect is fading by the second, i need to blog about it next time .
Sorry, peeps ! I need to put up with all these shits before i proceed .
Nic is right . I am a morning person :D Well, except for today . I woke up at 12 in the afternoon this morning . I mean, afternoon . Amazing, no ? Yes ? NO ! It's bad enough waking up late and i wasted my long hours of life ! I should have set the alarm or something . Do something useful like jogging or bugging the rabbits . A little bit late for all the regret so i'm gonna make sure it won't happen tomorrow ! Or the day after that . Or the day after THAT . Yeah . I mean, imagine . Sleeping at 1 am yesterday and woke up 12 pm the next day . Technically, it's like sleeping for half a day ! And if i'm not mistaken, i didn't do anything that made me all tired or worn out . Weird . SO yeah, when i woke up, i felt like i've missed out things ! And i don't like that .
Oookayy . Before i proceed on my usual good-or-bad-day reports, i'd like to remind people who would be attending for the SMKSP Poolside Prom Party to quickly get their tickets . You can get them from ME :) Please pay quickly, it's to keep things running smoothly . Check the Facebook event page for more information . Call or just see me if you have problems .
SPEAKING OF PROMS, i found out that my previous school, APIIT SMART SCHOOL is having their own Prom . By the looks of it, it's pretty cool . I found out through Sakina's blog when she posted something about prom dresses ? SO yeah, i did a little stalking and BOOM ! I found the Prom details on Facebook event page :D Oh the power of internet :) CLICK HERE --> APIIT PROM
I couldn't imagine myself going . The last time i visited APIIT, i feel like a total stranger with everyone . Minus Haziqah (she knows i'm coming, she greeted me with a hug that almost toppled me over AGAIN), Mr Sah who was my English teacher last year (also known as DAD-at-school), my van buddy, Eddie (who i swear, the only guy who hugged me then), Amirah Lyana, Laily, AX ( i hesitated when he wanted to hug me but i ended up saying, NEVERMIND ! and made up excuses that i'm sweating and all) and some other people . Yes, quie a few . Other than that, i don't think i was welcome on that day . Maybe it's because i lost touch with certain people. WELL, who cares ?! I DIDN'T GET TO SEE YOU, AIS ;(
In conclusion, APIIT is not my place at the moment . I feel like a mouse down there .
Today is a good day . I have no idea why . But i have this hunch that it's because i wasted half a day by waking up late . I had breakfast for lunch . GEDDIT ? BREAKFAST FOR LUNCH ? No? UGH, never mind . I did a little Physics revision and had a nap at my sister's bed for a few hours . I had lunch during tea time which was around 4 pm ? After 'lunch', i blended apple juice . I have no idea why, but i got really drunk with apple and watermelon juice today . I drank a few jugs and i crave for MORE ! Too bad, i finished all of them . Now i have to wait til my Papa buy some more from Giant which i think will take up about a few days ? SNIFF !
HMM, i watched tv with my sister, Diana . I think it was a show called Superstars Of Dance ? It's an international version of So You Think You Can Dance by the looks of it . It's exciting :D And a few shows after wards . The highlight of the day was ; I FINSHED the whole tin of butter cookies . Yep, all of them .
They're quite addictive ;O I feel guilty . I didn't leave some for my siblings . But i think it's okay . They have their days, i have mine :) I should make a certain day as Arina Day . But my birthday is MY DAY, no ? HMM . 15th March . I guess, that'll do :]
New RULES on ARINA DAY :
No one is to get on Arina's nerves and disturbs her inner peace
People who wishes her Happy Birthday will be rewarded with hugs and kisses
No one is allowed to be UNHAPPY, EMO or ANTI SOCIAL on that day
Presents and gifts are MOST welcome
Show her your LOVE on her day
Everyone MUST OBEY her rules on her day
Those who disobeys will be hunt down and chop into pieces of shushi
I think i'm gonna turn in for the night :) GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE !
Pay attention ! You gotta make the best first impression on Monday ! Judges for the BP myScience Challenge would be arriving here to well, JUDGE this Monday and as usual, we just want your LITTLE help . Nothing much, but just KNOW YOUR FACTS ! Here are the list of things you need to know (and that are bound to be asked) :
Activities held in school
Main objective
Progress
What good will it do
What did YOU do
Number One
There's some you can check out on the school blog which you can click at the *SMKSP going Green at my friends' list at the side bar :D CLICK CLICK !
Number Two You can see at school near the Sports Storage room, there's a BIG blue banner hanging at the back that says it there . SO GO READ -___-'
Number Three Find out from teachers, blog or ME :)
Number Four Use your brains for once and find out yourselves -.-
Number Five I think i should ask YOU that kan ? >:)
I'm trying my best to remind you on dear Facebook, but as usual, EVERYONE FORGETS ! Make effort people, we're so close to winning, you know ! HMPF !
It won't kill you to actually help you know, some people are just tired doing things on their own .
Aliaa says: ariiinaaaa , i finished the booook it's so sweet , i almost cried Rna says: i KNOW right ? ;D wow, how long did you take to read it ? Aliaa says: haha , long i know kan cos of exams but i still did even a few pages one night just so tht i can sleep ;D and jun wants to borrow it , is tht alright ? she stayed over last night and started reading it Rna says: sure sure Aliaa says: and she cant stop now Rna says: I KNOWWW it happens (; just return it before the holidays x) Aliaa says: okay , sure thing so now once again i'm out of books i dont know what to do at night Rna says: dnt we all ? ;]
As some of you have may notice, i was absent at tuition yesterday . Yes, i was unwell . Yes, i am okay now . Yes, i'm sure . No, it's not swine flu -.-' SO yeah, i missed tuition . I was out of painkillers and yeah, i didn't medicine . It's something i call, natural healing :] Drugs ain't good for ya . Even if you follow the proper dosage, it's not good for you . I have a friend, whose parents BOTH are doctors . She's a very healthy person who rarely fall sick but there's a time when she was sick . She had to stay at home and her parents insist her not to take any medicine but just get some rest . COOL EH ? I got enough rest and i'm good now . Sad though, i missed Chemistry and Biology class yesterday . HANNAN, don't forget to pass me my papers !
But i came to tuition today :D Well, um . I'm supposed to have BM in the morning and Physics in the afternoon . I came only for Physics because i'd disappoint my teacher if i were to cancel the class because it's a one to one session and you know, he came all the way for me . BM is a subject i wouldn't feel guilty skipping . Today was calming for some reason, yet i feel slightly retarded at the moment -_-' HMMM . I finished today's Physics class at around 1.35 pm and knowing that my dad is going to pick me up after 2 pm, i stayed in the front office and played with Jerry's dog while waiting for my dad . Cheeko is his name ! And playing around is his game :] He's getting bigger now . I can tell coz when he jumped up at me, he was above my knee ! Talk about fast rate growth . I'd take him out for a walk but i prefer doing so when my friends are around coz Cheeko can really drag you from one place to another . Strong little puppy, he is . OH OH, this is Calvin, he's the one who adores Cheeko the most . He wants to be a vet one day . So what i'm seeing here is it's either his love for animals or if he's in love ♥ NOTE : Sorry, Ama .
Love at first sight, no ? ;)
OH MY FREAKING FISHSTICKS !
I AM IN NEED FOR the ALL AMERICAN REJECTS CONCERT TICKET ! I mean, seriously ! They're coming down on the last day of the month ! I NEED tickets ! Tyson, i'm coming for you baby ! Even if i have to sneak in pass security guards and jump through windows :') If you people happen to have a few you'd like to sell . CALL ME !
let me have a moment, *drools
Last night, i have been watching this cartoon version of X-Men . It's called X-Men : Evolution . I remember i used to LOVE watching these few years back and i would just scream around on the floor if i missed an episode . But fear not ! I've found a website which we can watch ALL the complete episode ONLINE :D It's clear, you can put in full screen and boy, it's all there . Thanks to Amira K. Ikmal :) I saw her Who I'd like to meet on her Myspace profile and on the spot, i KNEW it's the teen titans . SO i did some Google research which leads me to good old Superman, to Batman, and all those Marvel superheroes . Then i Googled X-Men and there you go ! Link to the website i told you about is HERE ! ;] *SUPER CLICK it !
AWESOME, aren't they ? 8)
Personally, i like the Rouge character best . Cut the emo crap, she's quite OKAY you know . I don't like the real version of Rouge, the long haired brunette in those X-Men movies which starred Hugh Jackman and all . I prefer the cartoons and comics ! Well, i AM a kid you know . AHEM ! So last night, me and my sister went all snugly in my room where we watched it til after midnight . The air cond was on . I was on my bed . My sister was on the floor beside me on lots of pillows ! She slept over in my room afterwards :)
AND i fell for it again and again . When will i ever learn ? :)
Forgive me for not updating for such a long time . Well, i THINK it's long anyway . I haven't blogged around one, two -- FIVE weeks :) A record actually . I usually can't stand not writing anything a day . But i have overcome the major addiction . YAY, ME :D *this is the part where you clap your hands off as to show applause !* AHEM, thank you thank you !
So you human want updates ? First off, i'm currently having exams this week . This is the second week of finals and next week's the last . On Monday . PJ subject . Hmm . Yes, i do have the temptation to actually SKIP school on Monday . And Tuesday, maybe . Wednesday sounds good too . HMMMM . NAHH, i ain't gonna skip school coz my peeps wouldn't want me to yaw . But then again, i hate mondays :) HAHAHAHAHA !
Nope, there was no reason to laugh at all there . Speaking of exams, i had Biology and History . Both are paper one . So it was OKAY, kinda . Coz for questions i'm not-so-sure-of, i can just go -- eeny, meeny, miney, MO ! *Thut, goes the pencil and there's the answer :D I know it's wrong but i can't just leave the paper empty, no ? Unlike paper one , paper two and three are the worse if-you-can't-answer-then-no-marks papers ! So sucks for you if you dnt study . History is a confirmed FAIL subject . Coz i screwed up my paper two . I got a bad headache the night before and it lasts for the whole nasty night . I can't even get up right that morning, so yeah . Even if i did my paper one well today, i can't save my paper from failing . SO, that's one sub and how many more to go ? I'll let you know later . Biology paper one was pretty good :) Alhamudulillah . Hopefully, the marks would be enough combined with my paper two and three to get me a solid B . Amin .
I got Maths and Agama paper tomorrow . DANG .
Oh oh, something funny happened today . I came back from tuition . All moody (quite unhappy on the fact that someone threw a sweet wrapper on the ground . YES, i DO have something against people who are contributing to global warming) and tired (well, i've been having tuition since 3 til 7) when two of my three siblings fought . The little boy and the littlest girl . Oh the usual, fighting over things and today, it was the fight for the two pieces of pizza i bought back from my tuition teacher after class which i didn't even EAT . It's mine . But you know, sharing IS caring . Plus, i know i wouldn't go jogging anytime soon to make up for all the carbs . I got so pissed when they started yelling to each other and all that i yelled, SHUT UP . They kept it down for a while until after dinner, but continued their little fight in the room . OH YEAHH, you know what happened .
I came stomping into their room in less than a second ! Started scolding them like nobody's business and reminded them all the bad things that happened to the older family members in our family when they fight . It was the first day of Raya and i should say, it was quite bad but ended up good in the end . So it was okay, minus the part when we didn't get to go raya to other people's houses, we didn't get enough raya money (well, as much as last year) and practically, everyone cried that day . Yes, as in tears and sobs . Adults AND kids . Yes yes, i cried too . This nightmare-ish kind of event got them shaken and kinda taught them a lesson about siblings shouldn't fight coz it'll not only cause unhappiness to ourselves but to our other loved ones too . After my all-time-earth-shaking lecture, i made them hug, kiss and rub noses (a thing i learned from my Auntie Ima when she made two of her small sons apologize to each other) :D
Nope, that was NOT the funny part . Funny part was afterwards . I had to take a looooooong shower to cool myself down . When i came out about half an hour later (okay, it was not THAT long but still !), i seem to have misplaced my glasses . Cussed under my breath, i tried to look for it with my practically half blinded eyes . But i can't find it ANYWHERE in the toilet. Which is weird coz i remember wearing it when i came in . Or did i ? Until i was about to give up (after searching around the house), my sister, Diana volunteered to help me look for it . I swear, i was super blind without my glasses !
Diana : Where did you put it ? Arina : Well, if i knew . It wouldn't be lost, would it ?
How low can she go ? -_-' AND THEN, it hit me . It was on top of the dividing wall between the shower area and the sink . I went, "Oh, there it is" PROUD AS I REMEMBERED where i have misplaced it . I do that sometimes . AND my glasses being all black framed is not helping at all . NOTE TO SELF : Next time, buy a striking coloured specs to avoid moments like this . Electric blue or scarlet red is preferred :)
Oh my, it's getting late . I need to study now . BYE !
Maaf inside and outside, forgive me if I've done any wrong things to you whether it's directly or indirectly, I'm sorry
Oh and sorry for all the 'water works' and PMS-ish moments in class/school/tuition to some of you, haha! I'm an anti social at the moment, bear with me. Every girl has her time ;) Dnt worry, I'm okay, so quit asking -_-' Thanks.
If you humans feel like coming to my house for raya, feel free to let me know EARLIER, ahem! (Dnt come without giving a head's up, I may be sleeping -_-) and I'll give you the address to my untidy house and no, no duit raya (For fish sake, I'm still a kid -.-') But there will be food, THAT I can assure you ! Non-Muslims are welcome to come over too. Come on over :]
Oh, do pray that may some of my kuih raya in my house survive the week, I may bring some to class/school/tuition next week (!)
EHEH, drooling eh ? ;)
Til the fire works cracks! Lots of love, ARINA -xo-
For a person I rarely meet, YOU ARE DAMN SWEET, ZAF :)
John Ando [zaf] says: hey hey =) Rna says: i'm emo John Ando [zaf] says: asal? wht happened? Rna says: i dunno well, i twist my hand but i dnt think that's the reason i feel like an empty cup John Ando [zaf] says: how so? wht happened sampai u tetibe cni, cmon wheres the perky cheery arina i knw n love ? Rna says: i have no idea where she went and i think she lost something *sigh John Ando [zaf] says: awwwh cmon, cheer up it cldnt be tht bad Rna says: dnt you wanna ask what i lost ? John Ando [zaf] says: i was abt to so wht did u loose? Rna says: my sanity John Ando [zaf] says: wht happened ni? talk to me i will make u feel better Rna says: i dunno i'm confused ugh *sigh well, nevermind how's your day ? John Ando [zaf] says: it aint me time its u time, so spill i dnt like to see my friends upset Rna says: well, you're not literally SEE-ing me hahahahaha John Ando [zaf] says: well , i know ur upset i still dnt like it Rna says: well, i like it ;] now i know another person cares John Ando [zaf] says: of course i care? duh. =.= i aint gonna rest till i knw whts bugging u Rna says: thing is zaf, i dnt even know D:
Rna says: how they do it, i dunno Frd says: just asking, maybe u did once yeah tell the truth laaa Rna says: -___- did YOU ? Frd says: well.. sometimes haahha Rna says: and NOW i KNOW ;D not such a goody goody in my eyes anymore hmm Frd says: haha, what goody goody? Rna says: mommy's budak baik ;] Frd says: what? everybody does it laa haha Rna says: they do ? Frd says: yeah, u search internet laa Rna says: ah ah, mula la merepek
The conversation above has nothing to do with what i'm about to tell you, i just put it there for fun :D Well, i'm out of good intros ! Yes yes, i broke my one week blogging holiday. I have a story to tell so it's an exception. Besides, i have an explaination to do right ?
Short words, keep up with me.
DRAMA DRAMA, WORK, HOMEWORK, TWISTED WRIST, CRY, STAND UP, WALK BACK, DRAMA TEXT and GUESS WHAT ? MORE DRAMAS !
Hello everyone :) I know most of you are worried of my unusual behaviour yesterday but just so you know, i'm okay now
AHEM AHEM, i bet most of you wants explanation ? Well, i had an emotional breakdown at school, did a good deed, came back, skipped tuition and off to Qistina's house where i found my peace of mind.
My sister and I buka puasa at her house and i met a new friend, Asilah Then my little darling called, still worried about me :] After Maghrib is when all the fun started ;
I got ready quite late, My sissy and i arrived at Qistina's house around 7 something, in our hands were kuih raya and murtabak my daddy gave us :) She looked like herself ofcrse except that i'm STILL taller than her, haha :D So first there was a few awkward silences and her sister, Maryam keeps sticking her face at the laptop talking to people online, something i WOULD do but not when human guests are there, hahaha. Shame on you, Maryam!
So we buka puasa with Qis's mom's bubur lambuk (is that how you spell it ?), pasta, and some kuih i was craving this morning. Lucky, ain't it ? Nana was oh-so-shy at first, taking just a little bit of food at a time and talked little which is NOT normal, she usually EATS a lot and talks talks talks NON STOP, hahaha. But all this shyness didn't last. After Maghrib, everyone started talking especially Qis herself, according to her, she talks like a roller coaster :D I told her about my bad day and my current dramatic life. And we took some photos along the way and Maryam showed me a very nice song which picked me up high. The words are so meaningful and now, i can stop crying and end my day with a smile. Amazing what a simple song could do for you that non other humans can do x]
We went back around 10.30 pm and i bought back two books which Qis said she won't read it EVER again, LIKE WHY?!! But nevermind, i'll read it! HARDY HAR HAR :) She has a nice mini library of books i'd kill for! But over all, it's a bad day ended good :) Thanks Qistina ♥
Still wondering what happened earlier? Well, i think i shouldn't tell the whole world since now i know lots of people cares for me and that i needn't worry because i'm cured (for now) and i definitely know what to do when i need a little pick me up. Thank you for the concerns everyone, i love you. This includes you too, Megat Aliff, i'll call you when i need a tough guy to murder people :D :D
Meet the 24/7 internet addicts
Qistina is an antisocial
The humans i was with last night, i love you
AND that is all for now, darlings !
Maryam got no work to do,
and she thinks my many attempt to sneeze is funny :)
Here's the song that made my day, hope it'll make yours too
She's upgraded herself, i'm so proud ! *sniff*sniff* :') And I'm just getting started ;)
NUMBER ONE ;
You started swearing in funny words like botch, bugger, balloon knife (my personal favourite!)and so on but yet, it's still cussing and i'm proud! MY OH MY, I've been a bad influence on you eh ? x)
NUMBER TWO ;
You're an active blogger now, YAY! SNIFF, people like me, Shushi and Lidiya are so so proud of you! Not that you blog everyday, but that's a start :D One day you'll start to have a blogging addiction and everything you depend on is your blog. Soon you'll be like ME :D :D :D Oh my, that's bad isn't it ?
NUMBER THREE ;
You've found your hidden talent! LOOK AT YOU ! Your picture! WTFRIGGINFISH?! You're a bloody natural with the camera la. I remember you always avoid the eyes of cameras telling me that you're not photogenic and all that crap. You make Amirah & Me proud :] So what do you have against camewhores like me and her when you, yourself are one? HEH? HEH?
NUMBER FOUR ;
Your friends list is increasing! Again, i'm so proud. You're socializing! Why do you have to put me as your POKING PILLOW ? -_- It makes me sound like a furniture and so lifeless (*gasps)
NUMBER FIVE ;
I'm sorry i didn't reply your text, was busy as usual :( I'll call YOU! So write down a list of topics while you wait for the *ring*ring* so we can avoid awkward silences kay ?
NUMBER SIX ; So when are you getting yourself a boyfriend? :) Put that on your mission list. I've done my part :]
NUMBER SEVEN ; I miss ya I miss ya I miss ya I miss ya
Now, i want you to put that blog photo of yours as your Myspace display picture.
You're on my top for God sake, make me proud (-er) by putting it there
so people can see that i have a hot looking best friend :D
Today is a dull day, LITERALLY! My mood's going downhill by the second. I mean, okay, waking up and going to school is okay. IN CLASS, it's a whole different thing. I'm a sad sad sad little antiscoial sitting in my little corner shrivelling like a dead flower. UGH, that is just sad.
It's either the weather, or the people abscent or just me. Maybe it's me -_-
Alia agreed today is a dull day. The only thing that's interesting today is Venothani embaressing me in the library telling the dude infront of me, "I walked 24 steps up just to see Farid Bahar" AHEM AHEM! Poor guy, you probably scared him. What the fish man, could you not say that any louder? -.- Haha, weirdo.
Oh and today's spot check on students during Agama class. That is all. *sigh, my liqiud paper kena rampas :l JEEESH! It didn't come from the sky you know -,-
So yeah, nothing much to report. Miss Chua and Puan Faridah didn't come to class, so we had free periods. I slept all though Bio time. Dayumn. Woke up, feeling stoned and legs got cramped.
But the other brightside of today (yes, there is one) is that i buka puasa Kay Effe Cea (KFC) at tuition today, hardy har har! And um, someone lent me his book which i'm currently reading right now :D OH OH OH, i got in contact with old friends! Bless MSN and Facebook :) I'm still using Myspace but not as active.
Sarvesh hi... remember me...? Arina um, i think i do, do i ? hmmmmm hold on, who are you ? O: Sarvesh u studied in skkt rite...? Arina yep yep, you too ? Sarvesh yap.. v was librarian... Arina OH?! you remembered ? Sarvesh yes Arina ohmy, i feel so guilty for not remembering you ): what class were you ? Sarvesh 6d, u was in 6 K or L Arina M :] oh my, i need to get ready for tuition i'll talk to you later ? leave anything on my wall and i'll reply ASAP kay? keep in touch dear! (: Sarvesh ok... darling.. bye... Arina haha, take care!
QISTINA IS ALIVE!
Arina says: haha, how bout you tell me whats goin on in your life (; Kickasq says: nothing, i become anti social lately you? Arina says: omg, SAME HERE Kickasq says: oh and ustazah was mad at me cause i dont mix up Arina says: cam no mood to talk really ? aw , why ? Kickasq says: i just like being alone this year im always in the mood to talk but then i dont know what to talk about Arina says: speechless? Kickasq says: no, no topic i still miss sri aman Arina says: ): Kickasq says: hmm, youu Arina says: hm ? you okay ? Kickasq says: okay kot cuma lonely jerr Arina says: you know, i think kan even if i DID get to masuk sri aman i wouldnt have lots of friends Kickasq says: why? Arina says: dunno, just a thought i mean, look at me now most of my friends are DUDES! its unacceptable! i need more GIRLfriends Kickasq says: LOL, agreed Arina says: sometimes i feel lonely you know Kickasq says: yeah no girls talk soo if you got GIRL probs who do you talk with your mom? Arina says: some guys sometimes mom sometimes sister but you can't tell them EVERYTHING kan? and you can't do much activities either lets compare myself with sri aman girls *moment of silence* Kickasq says: LOL alaa maybe if you go to sri aman ntahlah pun tak tahu nk tulis apa oh this frday you free tak? Arina says: there's a difference between me and them hahaha, speechless? friday? not sure O: why's everyone asking me whether i'm free or not this friday? haha Kickasq says: whoa how many? nah wanna buka puasa at my house? Arina says: *gasps* OH MY OH MY OH MY, NAK NAK NAK ;D but hmmmm, kena ask mommy Kickasq says: okay btw haziqqah pun dtg Arina says: oh ?omg, i miss your mom's nasi ayam last time i came, we makan nasi ayam kan? Kickasq says: yeah, that was standard5 kan Arina says: mmhm mmhm! we were playing around then in your room, playing cards kan? then NIZAM came in, all hell broke loose! Kickasq says: LOL eh you tgh busy ker? Arina says: well, i'm multi-tasking but boleh la haha, sorry if i reply late Kickasq says: nah its ookay buat homework ker? Arina says: mmhm and trying to figure out what to write for today's blog post while facebook-ing and listening to some songs and talking to YOU ;] Kickasq says: awww soo tell me about your dudes friends? they bully you tak LOL Arina says: is that even a question ?! Kickasq says: yeah LOL Arina says: well, they're nice but at times, aiyoh -.- Kickasq says: lelaki mmg ganas Arina says: i can say they were nicer when i was new early this year, hahaha Kickasq says: LOL, eh soo all your frnds are guys? i tak boleh kwn dgn laki sebab muka i cepat merah haaha Arina says: not ALL la, man i cant live with that ! most of them coz i know them from KT i got some girl friends but not close ones *sigh, i miss you girls :l i lost contact with most KT girls most of them in sri aman Kickasq says: awww, ala you pergi jer sri aman ask for their numbers lol Arina says: and phone bill go high! haha
Hello, stop bugging me humans -_- When i say i'll do it, i will. So here we go, the first part of the tour around my room. BRACE YOURSELF! :B
NOTE : Photos are not clear due to reasons i don't know. I swear it was clear in my Cybershot.
I am proud to show you my book and hot wheels collection :D Gorgeous aren't they? As you can see, i have a Ferrari on top of the Enid Blyton's books. I love those books. Yep, i do enjoy reading and i read almost EVERYTHING :] Even children's books. Well, everything except school books, that is -_- We have a certain dislike towards each other ;p The cars are actually my brother's at first but then he doesn't know the VALUE of it, that's why some went missing others turned into scrap metal :O There you go, my collection. Note: this is just one of my bookshelf, there's more.
And this, ladies and gentlemen, is my bed. Mmhm, so if i say i'm on my bed while we're on the phone, you can imagine where i'll be. My mom chose the yellow curtains to create contrast with the blue wall. I have a blue table and a radio there by the side with a duck puppet which goes QUACK! if you move it's beak. My mommy gave it to me ;) I have to normal head pillows and a bantal peluk at the back there. Oh and one small square pillow. Yep, that's my comforter. Thick and soft, it keeps me warm at night. It's dark, so you can't see the night light by the corner there. Wait til i upload another clear picture. Then you can see it.
I'll try to visit you when i can but in the mean time, get some rest and don't stress yourself out :D You'll be having lots and lots of homeworks when you get back, buahahahaha! God bless you, dear. See you soon!
Ps, I tried to call you but i couldn't get through -_-
It's almost 3 in the morning and i didn't get ANY work done D: This is bad. Really bad. Considering due dat's tomorrow! Arina's totally losing her inner eye and focus. *SCREAMS* The world is at it's end. I think I'm stoned right now -_-' I've been looking at Bawie's photo albums on Mysapce out of curiosity and i made time to actually read most of the comments. So now, I'm slightly stoned. No idea why, but yeah, it's indescribable! I like his captions and people's comments, they're entertaining :D
ANYHOOS, i'll have you know that i woke up around after 12 because of a phone call. Don't worry, humans. This is not the pissing-me-off phone call ;) The sound of frogs never felt so heavenly tonight. Yeah, i finally took off the putting-phones-on-silent-all-the-time habit coz my mom said it's very annoying when a person took so long to pick up the phone or not answering it at all and i used this frogs croaking as my current ring tone. My phone's cheap and i dislike all the ringtones. Usually, i'll put my phone on silent or beep once which results to a few unread texts and million missed calls, hahaha! But now, i've made a change. So now if you call me, i'll be hearing *ribet*ribet*ribet*ribet*, not as bad as all the other LOUD & LAME ringtones. SO now you know why i don't pick up phones. I feel like plotting a plan to get rid of my phone (maybe dropping it in the fountain, pretending that it was an accident) so momma will buy me a new phone :] OHH YEAHHH, the ideas keep on rolling 8D
Conclusion : If i don't pick up, keep calling me :)
After the phone call, i was suppose to do work which AHEM! i have not done until this very late hour :l Oh the guilt! AND the PRESSURE. Yet, i'm still lazing around, going through people's Facebooks :O I have a very bad habit of going online nowadays. It has become an all time addiction but yet, i have the laziness to reply people. I enjoy stalking nowadays rather than socializing D: Yes, humans. I have become an antisocial for now. Well, not fully. But i'm working on it. I mean, hel-ooo, you ppl are hard to resist. Yes, especially YOU :]
I don't think pigs can fly. Kan?
Mann, i really am stoned right now. It's either THAT or i'm just naturally retarded.
keep your comments and thoughts to yourselves, freaks -_-
Here's today's horoscope for Pieces people :)
Pisces
Horoscope Sep 7, 2009 Make serious efforts to improve your personality. New contracts might look lucrative but will not bring gains as desired- Do not make hasty decisions when it comes to investing money. Stay away from people who are likely to influence you with bad habits. Love life may be controversial today. Today you have a tendency to set your objectives much higher than you generally do- Do not get disappointed if results don't come as per your expectation.
Hasty decisions? HMMMM :l I ain't got no money this month YO, we're fasting! WHO? WHO? AH, i'll just stay away from everyone just to be on the safe side. Plus, i'm having the bad habits already! Let's not talk about love life, please? I've been doing so with 27 people today -_- SOME people may know why. I KNOW my objectives, it's like my motivation at the same time too. Shit, the last one's freaking me out :S
Good thing i don't believe in horoscopes (well, maybe just a little teeny weeny bit). Sometimes they're entertaining, other times, they can give you a massive dose of anxiety.
I feel cold right now. But the fan's on 2 ! Oh my, i'm beginning to believe my friends when they say i'm part reptile which logically i am not but who knows? Ew, let's hope not -.-' I prefer to be part feline :D To walk like a cat, smooth, graceful, full of confidence and with power! *sigh, cats are cute :] I'd want my own but momma says it's stinky (PFFT, as if the rabbits are NOT?!) and it's hard to take care of it. If it's mine, i'm gonna do it la kan? The rabbits aren't even mine, i still wash their cages, feed 'em, watch 'em and chase 'em around the garden when they're on loose. See? I'm a good person ;) What more could i ask for? Cats are wayy nicer and their response are better than rabbits. rabbits tend to ignore you and AVOID YOU at all times, at all costs! UGH, i'd like an animal which can purr when i'm feeling sad, come to me when i'm all alone and so on.
I am currently wrapping myself with my blanket in attempt to warm myself up. A hug will do better though :l But who would hug me at 3 in the morning?! SO nevermind, i'll hug myself. Nana would hug me but i can't disturb her since tomorrow's UPSR, i am not allowed to disturb her. That's weird, i thought it was on September. Oh wait, it IS September eh? Time flies, time flies.
GOOD LUCK TO ALL UPSR STUDENTS :)
BM suck, i know.
Speaking of BM, i have not done my Tatabahasa D: OHEMMEGEE, Pn Wee's gonna throw a fit. Literally. Unless, if i can finish this Ayat Songsang part :O If i can't finish it, copying will do, hahahahahha! All the best to me -_-' Oh and to SPM students, for your fishy Sejarah paper :) I've seen lots of ppl talk about tomorrow's paper on Facebook, haha!
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There I was, curled up in a fetal position under the nice protection of my thick blankets out of the coldness in the air, the little sanctuary from the world outside my room. Thinking of what I’ve done. Everything was going well. The feelings, the chances, the plans, the hope. Everything. And I’ve ruined it by a little careless nudge.
I fell asleep and awoke around sahur time but I stayed in my bed, wide awake. Hungry but feel that it was too heavy for me to walk in he dining room. So starving myself I will while I think of my little dilemmas I am going through.
I have my ways to let go things and pretend that by doing so, I am able to make myself feel better. Not GET better but FEEL better. It’s something a person is able to do alone without any assistance from any of her family member or friendly companions. Time is taking over, and I’m just getting started.
I was not ready to let it be known, it was just merely to make myself feel better. By typing it out, read it again and again (like I like to do with other texts in my inbox and sent items) and deleting it afterwards, it’s like deleting it for good. I know we shouldn’t rely on such actions but that’s just how I roll. When the accidental nudge did it, I felt so sick. My guts almost crunched itself to bits.
Not expecting any respond, I switched off the lights and my radio. Letting only one electronic item to stay on. My phone. The object which caused all this chaos. My mom always told me that we shouldn’t blame anyone or anything (in this case) if something bad happened to us but ourselves (which is quite disappointing, I was about to throw it around the room to give it a little joy ride if you know what I mean) but blaming ourselves won’t do any good either.
“Every bad thing has something good in between” quoted by an unknown source. I salute the person who created that ideology. Almost everyone I know (strangers included) keeps telling me the same thing, just so to tell me that not everything is my fault and there’s just some good little things that’ll come around sooner or later. Waiting for it to come is hard, it builds up the false hope we tend to create ourselves. Sometimes, the good things come up instantly and other times, it takes up to minutes, hours, days, weeks and maybe even years. Some may not come at all, but there will always be rewards for those who work hard for it. Always.
By looking around the bad thing that happened to me, I came to realize something. I suddenly know how it feels like to not be given something you really wantedneeded. This reminds me of the time (the last week before Ramadhan) when I saw a young boy, who looks quite young. Younger than me, I suppose. Very handsome. What makes this boy striking among others is that he has no hands but just limbs. I have no idea of what happened to this poor boy but humanity instincts came kicking in. I wanted to talk to him when no one is. I wanted to help him in someway either by giving money or just by being friendly. I wanted to do it so so much.
But then, I was in my tuition teacher’s car on the way to my tuition centre. Just a street away from the pasar malam at where the poor boy was sitting on a piece of newspaper on the ground under the shade of one of the stall’s umbrellas. I was late for class. A Bahasa Melayu class to be exact since it was a Tuesday. You know how weak I am with my own mother tongue. Quite embarrassing to admit but that’s the truth. I was in the car when I saw him; the traffic was the usual busy roads on the normal Tuesday night in ss3. My tuition teacher was driving slowly when we passed him. I’m glad he did (usually he’ll drive as fast as a road maniac, excuse the term). The boy looked up to see which stranger came by to look at him this time. I smiled. Hoping he would see it, hoping it would be the first good respond among the others which showed repulsion and disgust. At the same time, I wanted HIM to smile back at me. As to show there was an indirect friendship between us. But alas, as the car drove away, I didn’t get to see it.
As my tuition teacher parked his car outside the tuition centre, my mind was spinning. Which should I go to first? Tuition or the boy? I know very well that my tuition teacher has the habit of misjudging and reports it to my parents. To be late for tuition is a crime (or so they say) I was too selfish to think about anyone else at the time, my reputation towards my parents are way more important. So I went up to class with a slight pride that I’ve done what I was suppose to do. Be in class to learn (and improve my language skills). I’ve decided maybe I could go see that boy during the usual unofficial after 7 pm 5 minutes break time. It won’t be that long, right?
Wrong. What usually feels like a short hour felt like HOURS. It was getting dark because it seems like it was going to rain. An unfriendly rain. I can’t focus. I can’t study. I can’t understand what the teacher’s saying. I can’t even hear myself speak. My unusual behavior was noticed by Alyaa. A friend whom I met in tuition since last year. She asked me what was wrong and I know better than to tell her about the boy, not wanting to make it sound like I was trying to show that I was a good person (Certain types of people would do so, you know how the world works). I just told her “I need to go to the pasar malam and I need to go now!” Surprised but unsuspicious, she said, “Okay” and she volunteered to walk with me since I look so shaky, pale and unwell. I’m not surprised. I get like that when I feel guilty or if anxiety swells up. There were both. I feel guilty for not going to the boy sooner and the angst was the thought of him not being there anymore.
As evil as I was, I quickly walked out of the class without teacher’s permission knowing that teacher wouldn’t allow it. Deciding, I’ll face the music later. What’s important is to help the poor boy before he’s gone. Who knows maybe a RM 5 will help him survive a few days? Or maybe a friendly 30 second thought will lift his spirits. Who knows God, who knows? As we were walking (or running for me, poor Alyaa had a hard time catching up), it started to rain. “NO!” I yelled. “No no no no! It can’t be, he was here just now! I know he was here” Confused, Alyaa asked who. Maybe telling her would be a good resolution so she could help me find him (and maybe have patience for my odd behavior). A good friend she is, she agreed to help. But it started to rain heavily, so we had to go back to class. Disappointing, we walked back, but stopped by a shop to buy a drink for our friend, Zakiy who asked as to buy for him a bottle of plain water.
We walked into class, with the students (and teacher) thinking that we were up to no good. Like most students here are, that’s normal. Great, a bad reputation and a disappointing uncompleted mission. How ironic. The class broke the 10 second silence as to show nothing had interrupted it. As I sat there at the corner of my class, a few unnoticeable tears roll. For I have sinned for not helping my fellow friend. I bet the boy felt what I am feeling now. The feeling of a need for something, hoping to get it but no, hope shattered. And it’s my entire fault for not helping him sooner. My fault. Selfish.
SO there you go ladies and gentlemen, my confession for this evening (it’s morning but the word ‘evening’ is to give a little more dramatic effect). I prefer this not to be known by a soul but sometimes, these small happenings can help make people realize things they never would. Here I am, thought that I was going through the worse just realize it too as I typed this all down on a beautiful Sunday morning. And so I have decided that every of today (the 30th day of each coming month) will be the day I confess my deepest darkest feelings, thoughts, happenings, secrets and truth here on my blog. I’ve discovered that it made me feel good and less stressed. God bless Blogspot, for it is my little virtual confession box and my way for showing the world what they don’t see through my eyes. I feel better now once all that came out. May you readers understand me.
I was thinking maybe I should do a few suggestions to my Interact Club that we should do things to help the ill-fated and the unfortunate. But so far, I have doubts. Most members of the club were not even supportive with the PMR tutor project we’re going to do when school reopens. What else, charity work? Disappointing indeed.
My friend, Haziqah keeps telling me that I’m a Superwoman. Bless her heart. I know very well that I’m not and have not been one but now, I feel like I can be. An everyday hero. An unappreciated hero. Yes, that’s what I wanna be and that’s what I will be. For now, maybe I should take a nap (and later make plans) to shake of the unhappy feeling from the last text message I received. That’s one text message I won’t be reading over and over again. This is by far, the longest story telling AND confession I put on my blog. Maybe I should add this in my book. Don’t you think so, Haziqah? If no one will help the world, Then I will.
Yours til the tears stop rolling, ARINA.
Ps. PMR victims, don’t worry. We will inform you about our little tutoring program once the school reopens and let’s pray to God that I’m doing my job as an Ast. Community Service Director Job right, everything turns out okay and form 3 students will do well in PMR (unlike me) and SPM students will fly high (though we can’t do anything to help all of you but a prayer will do, right?).
Thanks to Marzuqi's photo i accidently saw while i was enjoying his photo albums,
i got a shock, had nightmares and woke up at 2 am -_-
Arina says:
you're awake ? HannSaggaf says: no.. XD Arina says: ah right -_- you're not HannSaggaf says: lol Arina says: sorry bout just now neighbour -_-' HannSaggaf says: lol dunt worry la Arina says: and i just woke up from nightmares! *shivers* HannSaggaf says: O.o wat kind? Arina says: there were snails EVERYWHERE ;S HannSaggaf says: =.= thats super scary.. Arina says: i'm still sleepy and now i have a massive headache if it makes you happy, you were in my dream along with some other humans but there were just too many snails! HannSaggaf says: lol what? i was eaten by snails? Arina says: nah, its like we're in this huge campus and there's this Bio department which was full with snails and we had to do experiments on them, watch them, LEARN from them, wtfish?! HannSaggaf says: lol, the fact that theres an experiment on snails made ur dream funny alredi Arina says: it is scarier than Frankenstein experiments -.-' and they just let the snails roam free around campus and like, when you & me were walking to class which feels like we're heading fr bio class at tuition there were snails here, we turned, it was there we turned, there it is! HannSaggaf says: lol Arina says: it is FREAKING EVERYWHERE! HannSaggaf says: was i scared? Arina says: YOU WERE BLOODY LAUGHING YOUR HEAD OFF HannSaggaf says: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Arina says: but in the dream, you were KIND ENOUGH not to pick up one and shove it to my face HannSaggaf says: darn Arina says: yeah, and you dnt mind taking different routes to class but your intentions were bad you didnt want to go to class -___- so we ended up walking here, SNAILS HannSaggaf says: haha Arina says: walking there, SNAILS and one time when we reached class, a snail dropped in front of me out of nowhere now, that's just too much! and i woke up with a headache and here i am now talking to you 2 am in the morning HannSaggaf says: lol Arina says: which is a relief coz i was expcting someone else to be but he's not so yeah, thnks hannan HannSaggaf says: lol, no problem XD Arina says: i bet you're enjoying this -_____- HannSaggaf says: hell yeah Arina says: obviously -,- HannSaggaf says: u just dreamt of snails.. how can that not b funny Arina says: you're lucky we're not neighbours or i just might be outside your window coming to strangle you then again, i KNOW where you live just a few streets away kan? buahahahahahaha HannSaggaf says: HAHA i have alarms and dogs around my house and i am TOUGHER than u XP Arina says: whots that suppose to mean? -___- HannSaggaf says: hehe... it means what it means la Arina says: dayumn atleast i'm not afraid of dogs, UNLIKE SOMEONE AHEEEM AHEM HannSaggaf says: dogs are better than SNAILS and i'm not afraid of them... just dunt like XD Arina says: i dnt like snails :l HannSaggaf says: haha but ur afraid of them also =P Arina says: a wee bit je -.- HannSaggaf says: haha sure.... Arina says: ugh, wtv. close topic close topic HannSaggaf says: lol kk Arina says: what are you doing up so late ? HannSaggaf says: cant sleep Arina says: gee, i WAS sleeping, til you know -_- HannSaggaf says: yeah. Arina says: my my so hows world stage? HannSaggaf says: awesome! i was reminiscing XD Arina says: i can tell -_- tell me more HannSaggaf says: hard to describe it la its like u have to b there to feel it Arina says: ah -__- kay, wow what are you doing now? HannSaggaf says: tv Arina says: alone ? HannSaggaf says: btw did u do ur bio homework? Arina says: WE HAVE HOMEWORKS?! and i thought it was just a dream D: HannSaggaf says: lol yeah the one we were suppose to copy from the test paper Arina says: hm? which one? HannSaggaf says: chapter 7 test Arina says: shit YEAH, did you do yours? HannSaggaf says: no XD Arina says: man, no wonder the dream's work is so familiar essay kan? which one you have to do? HannSaggaf says: yeah Arina says: first or second? HannSaggaf says: the 1st Arina says: hmm, is it the one yang --? um, man i cant remember HannSaggaf says: lol, i also forgot Arina says: i remmber the 2nd one light intensity kan? HannSaggaf says: yeah Arina says: i hve to do the 2nd since i was so inspired to do the first HannSaggaf says: lol, i just pick the one which i noe the most owh yeah the 1st one is respiration Arina says: huh? ah plan to do them after sahur or now so we can exchange ideas ? HannSaggaf says: anything la, i just want to finish so that i wont get more homework Arina says: mmhm, i'll take my book, hm right HannSaggaf says: shit la... im sooo effing lazy... Arina says: my first question, Discuss the process of the gaseous exchange in a leaf right, this i can do, its up to you la just entertain me to keep me awake HannSaggaf says: lol, k hannan focus.. explain how energy is released during respiration. need help Arina says: glucose kan? food? eh wait *flipping book* HannSaggaf says: 1st page of chap7 Arina says: yeah i know i'm replying some other humans hahaha HannSaggaf says: lol k Arina says: YES, i was correct! YAY YAY i dnt know why but after pushing certain ppl outta my life, i feel so smart and i can do work better HannSaggaf says: HaHa... Arina says: but wait i'm in the talking session of confessing about you know who oh no wait, you dnt know who HAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHA HannSaggaf says: =.= Arina says: just joking la hannan, i'll tell you once the time is right i dnt want you to be making fun of him and all just in case, you know haha HannSaggaf says: y would i wanna make fun of him? Arina says: oh i dunno, you ppl make fun of me all the time -.- eheh HannSaggaf says: haha cuz ur fun to make fun of XD Arina says: gee, i can tell HannSaggaf says: haha joking la, we just happen to have materials of u to make fun of Arina says: right, god help the helpless wait, let me finish up this survey and tag you on facebook haha HannSaggaf says: o.O i finished my work but all damn short HAhAHHA Arina says: i'm still writing! HannSaggaf says: haha =P Arina says: got my tag ? HannSaggaf says: yeah Arina says: doing it now? HannSaggaf says: huh? owh i have to do ah? Arina says: dang you guessed it :] and yeah, you have to do yours -_- HannSaggaf says: c my magic powers Arina says: i tagged you there on purpose boy, so you can see without me telling you so technically i'm not breaking my own promise, so yeah, you are welcome i'm ready for the insults now *puts on insult helmet* HannSaggaf says: lol, y wud i insult u la? hey u noe the note thing. am i suppose to write the title like urs? Arina says: no, change if you like, thats my title i was not being funny, i just answered it like it is hahaha HannSaggaf says: lol cuz u r mean la XD Arina says: YAY that's good, no ? HannSaggaf says: no thats not good bad gurls are no good XD Arina says: but good girls barely make history pon kan? ;] HannSaggaf says: haha they do
NOTE : I'm sorry this post took so long to publish, i had a hard time trying to upload Marzuqi's picture -_-
Here's how you do it: Dear (someone you recently talked to), I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11). (12),(Your name) then tag 15 people
1) What's the color of your shirt? Blue - I'm in love with your cat Red - Our affair is over White - I’m joining the Convent/Monestary Black -Our romance is over Green- Our socks don't match Grey - You're a leprechaun Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy Pink - Your nostrils are insulting Brown - The mafia wants you No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you Other -I dislike your eyelashes
2) Which is your birth month? January - That night you picked your nose February -When I quoted Forest Gump March - When your dwarf bit me April - When I tripped on peanut butter May - When I finally changed my underwear June - When you put cuffs on me July – When I saw the purple monkey August - When you smacked my ass September - Last year when you peed your pants October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub November - When your dog humped my leg December - When I threw up in your sock drawer
4) What's the color of your socks? Yellow - Ignore Red - Put whipped cream on Black - Hit on Blue - Knock out Purple - Pour syrup on White - Carve your initials into Grey - Pull the clothes off Brown - bite off Orange - CastratePink - Pull the pants off of Barefoot - Sit on Other - Drive over
5) What's the color of your underwear? Black - My boyfriend White - My father Grey – The Catholic Priest Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie Purple - My best friend Red – My knee caps Blue - My salt-beef bucket Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana Orange - My Blink 182 cd Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection Other --The elephant in the corner
6) What do you prefer to watch on TV? One Tree Hill - Senile Heroes- Frostbitten Lost - High Simpsons- Cowardly The news - Scarred American Idol - Masochistic Family Guy - Drunk Top Model - Middle-class Other -shamed
7) Your mood right now? Happy - How awful you are Sad - How boring you are Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men Angry - That your smell makes me vomit Depressed – That we’re related Excited - That I may pee my pants Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you Worried - That your Ford sucks Apathetic - That you need a sex-change Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid Other - That your driving sucks
8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom? White - Your love letters to me Yellow - Your toe ring Red - The pictures from Vegas Black - Your pet rock Blue - The couch cushions Green - Your car Orange - Your false teeth Brown - Your nose hair clippers Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket Pink - The cut toenails Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear
9) The first letter of your first name? A/B - My virginity C/D - The oil tank from your car E/F - Your neighbors dog G/H - Your photo with the mustache drawn on it I/J - Your left ear K/L - The results of that blood-sample M/N - Your glass eye O/P - My common sense Q/R - Your mom S/T - Your collection of butterflies U/V - Your criminal record W/X – Your sucide note Y/Z - Your credit cards
10) The last letter in your last name? A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass C/D - Always will remember the pep talks E/F -Never will forget that night G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard. I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly K/L - Hate your cooking M/N - Want your brother/sister instead of you O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises Q/R - Get sick when I think of your feet S/T - Always wanted to break your legs U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart W/X - Haven’t showered in a month Y/Z – am better off without you
11) What do you prefer to drink? Wine- Our friendship is ruined Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo Milk - The apartment building is on fire Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war. Snapple/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked out Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine Other – you should stop picking your nose
12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation? Thailand – Warm tingly sensations Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard France - Love always Spain - With tears of sadness China – You make me sick Germany – Please don’t hurt me Japan - Go milk a cow Greece - your everlasting enemy USA - Best of luck on the sex change Egypt – Kiss my butt England - Go drown yourself ______________________________________________
Oh my -__-' Here's what i got ;
Dear Frd, I don't really know how to tell you this, but the mafia wants you. I think I realized itwhen your drawrf bit mein your closet and I saw youpull the clothes offThe Chatolic Priest. I'm sure you'reFrostbittenenough to understand That I may pee my pants. I'm returning The couch cushions to you, but I'll keep My virginity as a memory. You should also know that I Love your sweet, sweet ass and You ruined my attempts at another world war.
Go drown yourself , Arina.
I tag Haziqah, YOU (yes, the person reading this) and my fellow bloggers :)
Ooookay, this is awkward. Sorry, Frd. It's your fault you went offline early -_-'
boo :B chique says: botch, i x dpt dtg today ;O my mum doesnt feel like sending me to ur house =,= Arina says: oky ;] dnt worry its not like we're gonna die tomorrow chique says: hahahahaha Arina says: or at least, lets hope not
Hello hello hello everyone, i went online straight after i get out from bed :D AND i've been here since then! Well, i showered already obviously! I smell like goat's milk and watermelon now ;) I think watermelon's the fruit of the day because i'm eating one right now and my hair smells like one too. HAHA, God bless Pantene :] I smell better than last week. We were out of body shower gel and mom keeps forgetting to buy some. She thought there were more under the sink but eh, no -_- It's hair shampoos! We have a stock of shampoos! SO i had to use the hand was soap for one day which smelled like bubble gum and it's obvious it's pink in colour. Not my kind of colour. I like LOVE LOVE LOVE my other hand wash soap which smells like Butterscotch. Mmm mm. The bottle's cute too, it's shaped and design is like a basketball.
ANYHOOS, i smell better now ;) Right after the bath, i put on my favourite orange basketball shorts that i've been wearing for TWO days straight now (Or was it 3 days?) Well, i can't help it, it's comfy! And a black tank top to match. Not that it mattered, but just in case if my tuition teacher comes early, i can just slip into my long pants which is stacked up with some other laundry in my room, grab my all time favourite grey sweater and run to the car like my life depends on it. My tuition teacher can get cranky when i'm late. Late as in like make him wait for 1/2 a minute, EXACTLY! He has issues :) But don't we all ? I dried my hair and brushed my teeth and went back to the computer.
Exactly like expected, i have IMs on MSN and some comments on Myspace and Facebook. I like to multitask :) Which is why when people ask me, i always say the same old thing -- Myspace, Facebook, MSN, Music, Youtube, Blogspot, Gmail and so on. That's why i tend to reply late, haha sorry :0 I talked to Haziqah about my current life right now, EVERY single detail which results to hand (and fingers) getting so sore. ugh. But it's worth it. You're my little secret keeper kan, Haziqah? ;) She's a good listener and she enjoys listening to my dramas. She says it's interesting and entertaining (?). Very funny -.-' So yeah, according to my last story telling, she said i was clueless and she keeps telling me, "It's a SIGN! THE SIGN!" Uh-huh, right. Signs. Personally, I don't think it is. But then again? All i know is that i won't be making the move :]
There i was, socializing with peeps. Then i realize an old comment on Myspace from one of my loyal blog readers which said, "EHH, Arina! I like your blog la. Why don't you put pictures of your room? That would be cool" First thought, LAME. But after a while, i got some ideas and my room is in the right state to be viewed by the whole world. YEP, it's messy and unorganised just the way you people like it. I'm gonna go take pictures of my room and maybe if i'm nice, i'll talk about my room later on :D Just as long as you people keep your comments among yourselves. Haha x)
I gotta go now,
Will be back later!
OH OH OH OH OH OH OH,
that reminds me! My twitter account is activated again :D I mean, that it's not dead. I'll try to tweet as much as i can. SO if you ppl are on twitter, mind following me? I wanna follow you too :] You can go to my twitter page at the link i put on my side bar. Please and Thank you :)
I cooked today :D Hm? Oh nothing much, just french toast :] OI, it's cooking too kan? I mean, there i was, texting someone. Then mom called to the kitchen, i walked in with a grin, satisfied by my last text i sent. But my grin didn't stay long when she said, "Come learn, help me to cook this" OH FINE, since i have nothing much to do while wait til i hear a beep from my phone (x
DANG, i have to admit i have no cooking skills at all. None. Natta. Zilch. So yeah, i was thinking bout all the possibilities of what food she wants me to help her with. Turns out we have this long French loaf which will be go to waste if we don't eat it as soon as possible, so yeah. French toast. Sort of weird to eat it as a break fast meal. I panicked got busy anyway.
First i gotta slice the long loaf with a knife. So it'll be nice and thin to eat :D But the problem was, it was HARD like like wood! Reminds me of the KHKerjaKayu days. Ah, good times :D But this does not required hammers and nails but a saw would be welcomed. I swear it was like so hard, i struggled to slice 'em and i almost cut myself! But that's normal, i'm not good at knives. I cut myself easily. NOT ON PURPOSE LA. I just need to improve my food slicing skills by like around, next 10 years? That's when i HAVE to be good at cooking, according to my mom, grandma, auntie, cousin and maid(s)? What for? It's not like i can't go out and buy myself salads or soups. I know i won't be serving any dudes or as they like to call themselves, HUSBANDS. I'm not planning in getting oneFULLSTOP.
Besides, i rarely eat nowadays. I weighed myself before (47kg) and after dinner (48kg). And that was AFTER i realize that i lost 5kg since i don't know when! I haven't been exercising these days and lost THAT much? I mean, i stopped basketball, no time to go to the gym, cannot go swimming because of the H1N1 chaos and so on so on. It's amazing in some way. I feel blessed. But it's not really a big thing, coz i feel sick and i don't think i have the stamina like i used to have before. Which is not a good thing. Why have a slim figure but low stamina?
I'll have you know, i look horrible these days. I have eye bags, pimples are spreading like CRAZY! AND and and, my lips are dry. My hair's are dropping like leaves in autumn! No, i'm not bald but GOING TO BE kan?! SO yeah, to put this all in picture, i look like a hag.
AHEM,
back to the kitchen. SO yeah, after the session of slicing HARDCORE loaf, i'm supposed to prepare the eggs. Crack 'em, mix 'em up with salt and sugar. AND i did that. I enjoy cracking the eggs, it's fun :D Oh, i felt guilty while i was doing that and i prayed over and over again, "Rest in peace, little chicks. I promise i won't eat you" I'll have you know, i didn't! Poor baby chicks. *SNIFF*SNIFF*AHEM, well the idea is to not to let the yolk break which i figured after my fourth egg that there was no point cozi'm gonna mix it up anyway -____-' AHEM! After the 5th egg, i stacked up the neatly cracked egg shells and put it by the sink for my maid to put away. HAHA, it looked like thin, round, skin-coloured legos.
After the egg cracking session, i stirred the eggs and i had to make sure the yolk was mixed too (ahem -___-') and add salt and sugar which i did. I was too lazy to take a spoon, so i just sprinkled some with the agak-agak-ness and well mixed it well. SO then, mom showed a demo on how you goreng the toast. Leave it in the mixed eggs (poor chicks) to let it soak up because the loaf was hard at first. Amazingly, it got soft and well, i fried it. CAREFULLY, not to get in contact with the hot oil (which got onto few parts of my fingers -.-'), i did it! My family said it tasted nice and i got full rate :D :D :D :D :D
Now i have to make an announcement;
SEE FRD, I CAN COOK! HARHARHAR!
i don't need to LEARN, i'm a NATURAL [;
Right, now that's done. I'm gonna do some surveys on Facebook now :)
They're quite enjoyable :]
sometimes, they're amazingly accurate.
Like this one,
"I'm searching for the words to make you realize That I really, really want you to stay, oh Tears of frustration I hold inside" Thanks for the song darl :)
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with your wedding plan! At the end, choose the people you want to be tag. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about you! :)
1. How old are you? sixteen
2. Are you single? JYEAH
3. At what age do you think you'll get married? i dunno
4. Do you think you'll marry the person you are with now? i'm not with anyone
5. If not, who do you want to marry? i dunno
6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman? Haziqah and some other people (x
7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding? garden :]
8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon? i dunno
9. How many guests do you think you'll invite? i dunno
10. Will that include your exes? NO
11. How many layers of cake do you want? i dunno
12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening? IF i get married, i prefer evening
13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding. I'll say a little prayer for you like in the My Bestfriend's wedding movie or maybe Pachelbel's Canon in D
14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon & fork? i dunno
15. Champagne or red wine? champagne
16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding? days after? then again, i dunno
17. Money or household items? money $$$
18. How many kids would you like to have? four, the most
19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD? maybe ;)
20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next? Haziqah ;3
I woke up this morning lying facedown on my bed by the very fishy phone call of loud and anonymous dudes, disturbing my peace when i was dreaming of watching a classical movie while eating heavenly doughnuts.You have interrupted me, and it annoys me.Fish you.
Let's make one thing straight, i hate hate hate hate it when people call for no fishy reason make loud noises which is quite disturbing ESPECIALLY when i'm having a good dream OR reading. When i ask "Who's this?" I expect an answer from you fishers and not by you hanging up on me while i'm still talking to you. WTFISH MAN?! Fish YOU.
I have patience but i'm not full of it when it comes to people like you. When you piss me off, you've just switched the inner bitch in me. So it's your death call. Sucks for you.
Fish you. Fish you. Fish you. Fish you. Fish you. Fish you. Fish you. Fish you. Fish you. FISH YOU.
SO yeah, it makes an even bigger bonus if you say you're my admire and all that shit. Ohhh, that's too much. Bloody lame excuses. AND WHERE THE HELL you got my number from?! UGGH. can't you atleast get a permission for it first? I swear, if i find out who's been giving out my numbers, i'll murder you in your bed and hang you at the fan and let it spin on 5. So yeah,
I woke up at 9 something today :) What? It's quite okay compared to yesterday, I woke up at 11 am! Imagine that, i don't usually sleep in the morning coz it gives me haeadaches and it's annoying when you wake up, you'll see that the world has pass you by. Yesterday was an exception coz i slept when everyone woke up for sahur :D So yeah. But today, results from last night's dinner time, i was in the suckiest moods of all sucked up moods! UGH :l Sometimes when i'm so moody, i get so tired. Real tired and sometimes i'll accidently fall asleep, if i'm lucky, there won't be any tear stains in my eyes. They tend to get itchy afterwards, haha. Yeah, i sometimes end up crying caused by the frustration of little things. I can't let go or forget things easily and i'm not ashamed to admit that i'm fragile. I may look strong or tough but i have feelings too.
Anyway, let's not go emo emo, hahaha! SO yeah, i dozed off yesterday after texting a friend from 7.30 until around midnight. Oh i do love surprises and my my, i got two text messages from the same person. Very amused, i replied. Switched off the lights and i try try try to go back to sleep but i can't -_-' SO since i'm up, might as well go online and socialize with humans.
But oh i made sure i made sure that i email Keana her pictures for her myspace music profile :) I made some but here's one of it;
I took this little flower which is in my garden,
this kind of flower don't last that long and i thought maybe
it would be nice for her A Midsummer's Daydream song
z a k i y says: tido lah Arina says: YOU LA TIDO z a k i y says: you lah tido Arina says: no, YOU LA z a k i y says: one two jus Arina says: *water* HA HA! z a k i y says: *burung* HA HA! Arina says: mana aci z a k i y says: aci lah Arina says: you know what i was gonna put -_- z a k i y says: a win is a win Arina says: dayumn -.- z a k i y says: loser! Arina says: oi so bad :l z a k i y says: ahaha im just kidding Arina says: (: z a k i y says: =)
As usual after checking my emails, there will always be forwarded emails like;
HOW TO TELL IF A GUY LIKES A GIRL :
1.The guy will try to make you laugh. 2.He'll flirt with you when he can. 3.He might try to show off around you. 4.He'll help you out, if you ask for it. 5.He'll stick up for you when you need it most. 6.He'll be friendly to you and all your friends. 7.He might call you for no good reason. 8.He might make fun of you, in a joking way. 9.He'll tell you that you did good, even if you did horrible. 10.He'll make eye contact with a happy grin on his face.
HOW TO TELL IF A GIRL LIKES A GUY :
1.The girl will laugh at all your jokes. 2.She'll stare at you with a smile on her face. 3.She'll ask you who you like, continuously. 4.She might try to make you jealous. 5.She'll beg that you do everything for her. 6.She might start talking to your friends. 7.She'll talk to you about the different varieties of guys. 8.She'll always seem to be talking about how nice you are. 9.She'll always be flirting with every other guy except you. 10.She'll always ask what to do in a bad situation.
Now you're blessed with the presence of your love's angel.
I've just finished helping my little brother edit his myspace profile (yes, he has a myspace now. Bizarre much? -.-) and added gave him a little demo on how to use myspace. Jeez, it's not THAT hard. SO yeah, that's him. On my top friends. Unless if you wanna layan my oh so immature little brother, i suggest you don't add him :) He's like my brother (which he is) for fish sake -_-
I have no idea why he wanted a myspace account so badly but here's my theories:
He wants to socialize
Out of curiosity
Friends told him to
He likes to waste time
Coz his sister is cool :D
A trend at school
Girlfriend
Personally, i like number 5 among all the 7 :D And it's probably true too, HEHEHEHEHE! ANYHOOS, according to logic, it's most probably all of it ESPECIALLY number 7! YEP, he does has a girlfriend which is one of the reason why he'd like a myspace. See, his girlfriend moved to another school and the only way the contacted was through emails. NO WONDER LA! He always begged me to use my computer which occasionally, i gave me ohsopainintheheart NO >:) So okay, maybe i won't be THAT evil anymore to him. Now that i've understand his situation. I'll just probably MAKE HIM SUFFER EVEN MORE, BUAHAHAHHAHHAAHA!
HMM? Oh, i found out when i heard him yell my sister to go away while he blocks my mom's laptop out of view. My first thought was, "SHIT, don't tell me he's watching porn". KAY KAY, i know MANY of my dude-friends, ahem excuse me, watch porn. They say guys who don't watch porn are not guys. I shuddered at the thought. I mean, okay. My little brother is kinda sissy (which is a wonder HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW in the world did he get her? That's going on my mystery list) but i don't wanna him to be watching porn just to what? Be a man? -.-' I know i know, i'm trying to play big brother roll as well to him. I can tell that growing up with sisters ain't fun :O
So anyway, when i came to the room, my sister went out (she buka puasa and i spotted bread crumbs) and i asked him, "What are you hiding there?" He tried to close the laptop but i was just too fast for him. MAN, I'M GOOD, HAHAHAHA. It wasn't porn (ALHAMDULILLAH!), but it was just a YM chat with his bestfriend. Apparently, they were sharing photos, and i saw a very old picture of me and my little brother as his display, OHMYGOD -_- So i showed him how to change the display and mann, was he grateful. Coz lots of people assumed that i was his mom, SAY WHAT?! Kay, nevermind -.-
The photo sharing was pictures of a girl which i kinda wrestled him to make him talk and he finally admitted that THAT girl is his girlfriend. Not bad, i should say. For a sissy. Pretty, very pretty. And very photogenic, if i'm not mistaken she was playing a guitar in another picture :) But he must have the big sister approval before moving on. I told him to tell her to add me on myspace so i can start with my interrogation session. Oh yes, i'm evil.
I have to admit i'm sorta kinda jealous, it's like my brother's been taken away from me I mean, HEL-LOOOOO! LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP?! For an 11 year old, that's like like like TORTURE! -_-' In my point of view la or maybe they're not serious which is an okay thing (i hope) But i told him i won't be his crying shoulder once they break up or something, not that i'm hoping (a bit). UGH, even my little brother has a life -,- Makes me LOOK bad, it makes it worse if i sudden;y have the feeling to go man hunting after this :o Maybe i should :) So that settles there, now i have another problem.
I FORGOT MY MYSPACE PASSWORD!
(dayumnnn, of all things to forget!)
Arina says: AAAAAAAAAAH how la how la? chique says: haha, hah? how what? Arina says: what to do now? chique says: what? im blur Arina says: about the password chique says: buat password baru la wait, ur myspace password kan? Arina says: -_- yeah chique says: yeah Arina says: i dah tukar chique says: buat baru Arina says: you need the old to do the new chique says: andd la.... just hentam la Arina says: -_-' i know kan? i cant do a new account, wasted chique says: nopee Arina says: losing all the few hundred friends! chique says: =,= Arina says: so, how are you? chique says: ok-kay fine im keeping track of how many ppl are gonna add me this week so far 5 Arina says: mine is, wait chique says: more than 50! Arina says: I DID IT! OMG OMG OMG you know what i did? i added another email address which is my gmail, yang active kan? chique says: yeah Arina says: and i signed out chique says: and and and ??? yeah yeah yeah Arina says: then tak leh log in D: chique says: anddd? Arina says: then i click forgot password chique says: WATTT?! Arina says: and typed my gmail address chique says: then then then? Arina says: ANDDDDDDDDDD BOLEEHHHHHHHH Arina says: my password's recovered! chique says: OMG!!! Arina says: I KNOW KANNNN chique says: *screams* Arina says: *screams* chique says: ur fans goes wild chique says: u can finally log in myspace! Arina says: YAY
That's another of one of Arina's Million Miracle Moments :) TOODLES!
As some of you may have noticed i've returned my Cbox at the side bar, making sure it looked nicer than before :D Oh, i've added some other stuff to make my blog more welcoming to all :D
Current song in my head;
Blindfold by Keana Reinu
(exactly! OUR Keana :) Her myspace music profile's on my friends list)
I've just looked through on macaroni recipes and i'll have you there's nothing i can try to do on my own -__- Well, as some of you may know, i'm not good at cooking. I can cook maggie, does that count? HAHAHAHAAHAHA. Yeah, not funny huh? -.-'
Wondering why the sudden macaroni? WELL, I'M HUNGRY! duh -_- I was thinking of making myself something out of the leftover macaroni in our fridge :) Usually we'll have them with soup but it's getting a little bit dull for me -.- Oh did i mention that i'm not fasting today? Yeah. Quite saddening :( Mom says i can eat as long as it's not in front of my siblings. I'm guessing she'd want to avoid any hard-to-answer questions, haha! But oh, i ended up eating leftover tuna with salad :l
Well, on the brightside of things. I can finally SEE! Not that i'm blind or anything but my old specs gave me a small limitation of seeing things clearly. So yeah, i got new specs :) And yes yes yes, i do look like a nerd. Maybe it's a good thing :B If i'm not smart, then atleast i'll LOOK smart, HAR HAR HAR HAR. C'mon laugh, work with me here -_-' Oh did you know i had to pick that specs because it's the only one (that i could afford within my dad's small budget on me, that is) cause it's the only one similar to my previous specs size. I've tried other specs and they're nice of course, gorgeous designs but it's too big for me. If i'm not mistaken my mom paid RM 250 for it. I found this one specs that's the right size and it looks like my old one except that it's slightly thin on the sides, it's made of good quality material and it's branded. For RM 599?! What the fish? I can by 10 shoes with that kind of money D: And a blue tshirt too. Ugh, so i stuck with my main choice, the nerdy goggles :D :D :D :D
HEY HEY HEY, did you know the Bella's lullaby everyone's craving for is actually from a Korean guy's song or something like that as i heard. Turns out, people labelled it as Bella's lullaby after it appeared in the list of Twilight songs. I've finally downloaded it and well, i know you want to too ;)
